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This is the great wall of /ts/ secrets:



-I have an internet-crush on pizzope.

-I have an eleven week old little girl.

-I want to run away and see if I can survive.

-I'm becoming nocturnal.

-I want to choke some of my co-workers.-I also have a 19 month old, and she is my world.

-I have a strong urge to strangle all of my classmates from time to time.

-I'm in love with my best friend.

-I feel like I'm buying drugs sometimes because I buy books through my friends behind my parents back. They call the stuff I read "weird" since it's fantasy, and I don't like that. In the end, I decided to avoid it altogether.

-I am 17 and going gray!

-I found my history teacher hot.

-I found my AP Comp Sci teacher hot.

-I've got a crush on my 30 year old neighbor who's married and expecting his second kid in a few days.

-I'm Pagan. And my family doesn't know.

-My secret is that I am crazy. xD

-For some reason, I subconsciously cut myself when I'm sewing with the needles.

-I found my third AP World History teacher to be hot. (Since the first one got a heart attack and they brought in two more teachers and he was teacher number three.) I mean, the man dressed up as a pirate during homecoming week.

-I'm in love with my best friend, also. And he already is happily dating/infatuated with his current girlfriend.

-if I have any secrets they probably involve liking things that are becoming too well-liked by others.

-My best friend is pissing me off. She always talks about herself, she always bitches and complains, and moans about how bad her life is. She is always SO DAMN melodramatic, and UGH! Not to mention she said she would do something with my other friend and I, but now she's saying SO many people want to see her, so she might not be able to go. IT'S FROM F***ING 9 PM - 6 AM! What other people are you going to see during that timeframe? Didn't you already make us your obligation? Sorry for the mini-rant, but I had to get that off my chest. I still like her, but she frustrates me a lot sometimes.

-I'm getting paid $17/h to work on a website and all I've done today is screw around online. I feel like I'm stealing my boss's money. :/

- I met this guy that I really had no interest in dating. But I decided to see if I could get him to develop a crush on me... it worked!

-I love reading Ikea catalogues. And walking through an Ikea store. It's great fun.

-My friends and I used to have bets on who could get a guy to fall for them first. It was pretty bad.

-I know this might sound really odd, but I really wish I had a psychological disorder. I'm confident that I don't, and I know I should want to have a psychological disorder; I realize how it could possibly hinder part of my life. Nevertheless, I have this odd want for a psychological disorder.

-I have a huge crush on the Attractive Boy In German Class that sits by me and I don't know anything at all about him. This wouldn't be as bad if I hadn't always prided myself on being ~deep~ in my perception of people - I feel so shallow.

-There's this guy who sits by me in computer programming, who keeps flirting with me, and I've decided to give up on hinting that I'm not interested in him, so I just keep leading him on...And I don't feel bad at all.

-I envy people for the fun of it.

-I'm 20 and I've never been on a date before. I've never been asked either. And I've never had a boyfriend either. Because of that, some of my writing tends to focus on sexually frustrated main characters (write what you know *awkward laugh*). And that doesn't mean I'm horny 24/7. I just have an active (extremely active) imagination. Makes for better writing.

- I'm 21 and have never been on a date. I've had 3 boyfriends in the past, but I was too young for them to be considered "serious". The longest relationship I had lasted 6 or 8 months but the weird thing was we never really kissed or even held hands. We were in 8th grade though, so it doesn't really mean much. The last boyfriend I had was freshman year of high school....8 years ago...

-I'm a part time stripper.

-I'm very much attracted to my best friend. I'm hoping it's just some wacky teenage hormone stuff but I can't stand how my heart seems to want to leap out of my chest when I talk to him. e_e

-I actually do listen to DragonForce occasionally, despite me making fun of their fans all the time.

-I'm sometimes concerned that I may be a closet Nazi sympathizer. (I actually have nothing against Jews. National Socialism in its purest form has absolutely nothing to do with Antisemitism. Just like how communist philosophy has nothing to do with Stalin's regime.)

-I hate how shallowly aloof I am at school. It's not my fault that everyone looks the same to me. It's not just their clothes or their hair; their faces, voices, and posture seem to be exact copies of one another. Why can't I assimilate? It seems that I like bright colors too much to do so.

-In highschool, I purchased an airline ticket and flew across the country without my parent's knowledge. Twice.

-I love playing hentai games. >.>

-I manipulated adults when I was younger.

-I'm a masochist-sadist hybrid.

-I'm still addicted to Rainbow Brite.

-I talk to myself in the mirror sometimes. Like I'm having a conversation with someone else, but it's just me.

- I've never had a boyfriend. I've never been on a date either, and I've never been asked on a date. And I don't particularly want to date. I think I may be asexual. Hm.

-I think that hentai movies and porn videos are fun, I don't know why but they are...

-I have anger issues, I take pills for that...

-My first kiss/make out was in my first party and I was so drunk that I can barely remember a shit but the guy was jerk so now I have a trauma with physical contact, I can't touch people without feel like a raped woman...

-I'm the queen of manipulation and I love it.

-I like when my ex-friends beg me for a new opportunity to be friends again (I never say yes though).

-I'm an atheist.

-I never had a boyfriend.

-I think Hitler had good ideas but the Jewish thing was stupid.

-I'm pro abortion.

-I'm a smoker since I was 13.

-Babies and the idea of begin pregnant scare the shit out of me.

-I'm a little... okay, maybe too much misanthropic for my own good.

-I'm a rancorous bitch.

-I have talks with myself in my mind...

-I think porn is hilarious. Especially the soft-core stuff. That's one of my secrets; I do enjoy watching that stuff. Flipping around the channels at 2 and 3 in the morning, Showtime always has some great stuff on lol.

-While everyone else in the house is asleep, I watch internet porn and read NC-17 Harry Potter fics. Sometimes, if I'm feeling particularly bold and frisky, I'll do it when someone else is in the room, on the slick.

-I named my reflection xD It is now named Anne Zhu. My friend named hers too; she's where I got the idea from.

-I love reading NC-17 HP fanfics. I'm kind of obsessed with them. RestrictedSection.org is the best. I don't do it when someone else is in the room, especially my mom.

-I'm Bisexual, and attracted to my straight best friend, who's a girl [of course] and taken by a guy who is emotionally and mentally abusive toward her. I hate him for treated her so badly...

-I hate Shakespeare and most classic literature.

-I once drank a whole cup of Crown Royal in front of my mom, and she wasn't any the wiser.

-I'm worried I have a monobrow...and that other people notice it. So I don't look at people when I talk to them.I wish I'd done the A Levels I want to do instead of ones I'm good at. I just didn't do the ones I wanted to do for fear of not over-achieving. It's pathetic, I know. And I'm so ashamed of myself for it now. It'd be too much catching up to switch now, and there's no way I'd get into a class I want to be a part of. I'm kicking myself for being such an idiot.

-I had a crush (sort of) on my ex-girl best friend.

-I've gotten drunk in the school and it was awesome.

-I had a hard crush on my cousin when I was 5...

-I want to get high before 30.

-I can't stand any friend I had or have since I was 17.

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-I'm not emo and I swear to God I'm not suicidal, but I wish I was never born for the most trivially retarded reasons.

-I don't believe in God (but my swear from above is still complete truth :])

-I think I'm bipolar but everyone around me is in denial and disagrees with my heartily o.O

-I really want to be a geriatrics doctor when I grow up, but needles scare the shit out of me... They're almost as bad as spiders :\

-I really dislike teenagers. We are a petty, petty people.

-I'd much rather hang out with a guy than a girl. Always. In every situation. All the time.

-I don't date because of my parents, who make such a big deal out of EVERYTHING.

-It's because of the 'I don't date' thing, but I find almost all of my guy friends attractive. ;3; I have at least 15.

-I'm such a Bleach-tard that I replace 'under God' with 'under Aizen-sama' in the pledge of allegiance.

-My friends embarrass me sometimes.

-I'm a virgin.

-I hate penises. I know this is just weird but they are kind of ugly.

-I curse a lot... like almost all the time.

-I think my father is a jerk, and I'm right...

-I'm a violent person. -I'm smart but I don't wanna look like a nerd girl so I try my best to look almost a little stupid.

-I'm a narcissist bitch and I like it.

-Sometimes, I get angry just because someone talks to me.-And when I get angry, I usually have the tendency to try to break something.-I can make myself depressed for the stupidest reasons.-I don't think I have OCD, but in my world, everything must be even. Like if I don't press down on a keyboard key hard enough so it goes all the way down, I have to press it again and make it go all the way down. Otherwise, my world feels "unbalanced".-I once made myself so frustrated I cried because my binder dividers' colors didn't match up with the subjects. You see, I have a set system in my head for what colors are which subjects. Math = red, Language Arts = yellow, Science = blue (or green), etc. But when math was my first period class, the first divider in the group was pink!-Looking at potato skins makes me angry.-Brandish a spider at me and I'll run away. Brandish a moving spider at me and I'll run away, screaming loud enough to wake the dead.

-The only person I've ever kissed was my (female) friend. -I've gotten drunk at school. (Tipsy yoga is surprisingly fun.)-I'm socially inept. I hate having to make conversation with people I don't know

-I hate beans, though I've never eaten any.

-I have a unreasonable fear about eating a unpeeled apple.

-I saw my slightly-older-than-me cousin recently, after six years of not seeing him once, and couldn't stop staring at him because he became so hot

-I have a phobia about porcelain dolls.

-I sometimes visualize slapping people who annoy me.

-I can't sleep with a closed door, and can't take a bath with a closed door.

- I'm absolutely terrified about my mum and if she dies (She has lung cancer T_T). I'm terrified but I don't tell anyone because I don't want to cry or feel bad. I have only told one of my friends and I want to tell my other friends but I can't find the words to do so.-I really wish I had a boyfriend. I know I won't get one until I'm 16 because I'm at an all girls school and do not know any boys my age. Hell the only boys I see regularly are my dad, my granddad and my sister's boyfriend.-I hate school. The only reason that I go to school is my friends. If I didn't have my friends I would bunk off. -I wish I was more selfish. I wish I didn't care about everyone else's feelings and what they want to do as much as I do. I always put other people before me. I almost never act on my decisions because I want everyone else to be happy. -I wish I had a close internet friend. Someone that I could just talk to but I'm too shy. On the internet and in real life.

-I got a tattoo on Thursday and my parents have no idea.

-I'm smart but I am ashamed of it for some reason so I act dumber then I am.

-I am extremely selfish.

-I'm nineteen years old and have never been in a serious relationship. And no, I'm not a virgin.

-The only place I tell the truth is on the anon internet because what chance does it have of getting back to anyone?

-I do not have OCD but if my arm touches something, my other arm must touch it too or I'll feel panicky.-My father is a stupid asshole who's abused me in every way but physically (He had my brother do that)-I still have to live with him because there's no proof of anything he did and if I went to the police, he'd probably kill me.-I have indeed thought of murder but know I'll never do it because I'm too chicken.-My emotions fly all over the place so I can't make any decisions.-I'm in love with a fictional character because he has every quality I've always wanted in a real guy.

-I'm a virgin because of what my father did, I'm terrified of sex.

-I went to an all girls school for two years. It wasn't bad, but I now go to a different school that I hate even more! Yay!

-I think Rat Tail is a dick. He's this guy in my class with a freaking rat tail and he called my big brother a dick to my face, so that makes him a dick.

-I don't like my mom's new boyfriend.

-I don't like most of my mom's side of the family. When I visit them I have to be Little Miss Perfect because I'm just not good enough to be myself.

-I wish my singing voice was better. People tell me that I'm good, but i sound like a canon booming and I'd rather sound like a little wind chime. I'm an alto and I'm jealous of the soprano ones.

-I have a hard time telling who my friends are.

-I still like the guy I have like sine I was 12 (I'm 17) even though we dated and dumped me with a text.

-My friends seem to enjoy setting me up with my best guy friend they think I'll look cute with him or whatever.

-I like a guy that's one of my best friends. And he's obsessed with my letterman jacket.

-I have so many secrets it will make a person go crazy just listening to them. and these are big secrets not just small ones.

-I'm bisexual, but only my best friend knows it. It's easier online because no one knows who you are. I'm not embarrassed by it-I just want to keep it from my parents until I'm ready to tell them.

-When I'm bored I lie to people about events to interest them or get them excited about some sort of drama in my life. My best, by far, was this guy I dated who sculpts feet and had a fetish for them. Seriously? I couldn't believe they even accepted that.

-Not many people know this, but those that do are witnesses and that's all. I used to have a stalker. Not a serious stalker, but enough to creep me out majorly. He's stopped since my friends have been taking the bodyguarding thing seriously and dropping loud comments such as "don't you just hate when some guys can't take a hint?" It all started three years ago when I was partnered with him for a chemistry lab. He later on said things to me that are too disgusting to put into words and asked me out for coffee and a fuck. I kid you not. Ever since I "offended" him and he replied "you'll regret that" I've been kinda scared around campus. And he knows where I work too.

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-When I told my one of my closest friends that he was dead, the only thing that worried her was whether the funeral would interfere with our plans to go to winter formal. She knew I disliked him, but she could've shown a little concern, at the very least. And my friends wonder why I don't tell them anything...

-I don't believe in god.

-My real name is Jocelyn.

-I am a Michael Jackson fan.

-It's pretty well known around here that I'm a "skeptic" religiously, but I started doubting God when I was 7, still in a Catholic school. I had my Satanic period, my Eastern faiths-in-general period, my Deist period, and my God-spiting period. Now I'm a comfortable Pastafarian.

-I never let it show, but I'm really insecure about the fact that I can't read music. I don't enjoy many things in school, and I think myself capable of participating in only a small fraction of the things that I do. I'd like to continue being a choir nerd, but to get into a college or even secular community chorus musical literacy is a requirement. And even though I'm learning, I get so frustrated with myself because I can't hear pitches and I get tripped up by the simplest things.

-I think I'm physically incapable of reaching academic goals. I've tried to psyche myself into doing well in school countless times, but I'm never able to get off my lazy ass and do homework or get tutoring or anything. I've negotiated with the school that I have a different learning style and now I only get graded by my test and quiz grades which are usually pretty good, but it still really bothers me sometimes that I can't succeed in high school by conventional means, that I HAVE to have accommodations.

-I seem to have some real perception issues or something. I tell myself that I'm worthless, stupid and incompetent, then I turn around and think that people are so lazy and that I'm smarter than so much of the population. These notions never come into conflict with each other- I don't know how it's possible, but I fancy myself a dolt and a genius at the same time.

-I have been doubting my religion too, so going to Religion class makes me feel so bad. I don't know, it's just when people get all religious, I wonder if it really is all true. I'm so afraid of going to hell, I really am. I can't talk to my parents about this because they will drill me. I haven't yet gone satanic or anything, but it's pretty close to happening.

-I have this huge infatuation on someone who is two years younger than me. I really can't help it. My hormones are telling me that he is attractive, and I don't want to believe my goddamn hormones.

-I wish more than anything I could be a good Christian but paganism appeals to me in a way I still don't understand. -I'm bisexual, but there are days when I'm so bitter and doubtful of men that I feel like I can never be attracted to them again. And sadly I have a boyfriend. -Porn makes me laugh. -I don't care about half the people who care about me.

-I talk to the ghosts in my bedroom? >>; Unfortunately they can't talk back...very well. x_x

-I talked to myself during a math test. Suffice to say, the person sitting behind me passed.

-Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts.

-I feel as if my parents don't love me sometimes, but when I told them, they totally laughed it off and my dad told me that it was my problem to deal with because he did love me and if I didn't know that then I'm stupid.

-The moment I joined this forum, I lied.

-I hate answering the phone. I'm afraid to answer it.

-I dislike one of my "friends."

-I should be doing my homework right now.

-I have a weird fear of bugs. I'm only scared of the ones that jump/fly/crawl out at me, but I like playing with the "visible" ones, especially ants and ladybugs.

- I consider myself a dragon otherkin.- I'm an atheist and I don't believe in good or evil, but Buddhism and Daoism appeals to me.- I hate showing my teeth, because they're not 100% white.- I will not eat an uncut apple.- Most veggies make me hurl. I don't know if it's because I never got used to eating them as a kid or because I have a strong sense of taste.- I get scared really easily and lose sleep cause of it.- When my dad's away I sleep in my mom's bed.- For a while I went to 4chan.org's hentai section even though I convinced my boyfriend I have no sex drive and could never see that stuff. (I didn't download anything though, don't watch vids, and preferred the soft core stuff) - I was once molested. I've only ever told my boyfriend about it, and my parents don't know.- I read jokes online that are funny and try to brandish them as my own when I'm with friends.- I do something similar with riddles. I got 2 books full of riddles and their answers and now everyone thinks I'm smarter than I really am.- I used to have a monster crush on Sanosuke from Rurouni Kenshin when I was 11. I've dug tall assertive birdheads since.- When I was 13 I wanted to go on a school shooting.

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-I'm a Christian, but it's so incredibly difficult to repent sins and resist temptation of different kinds...I wish sinning wasn't as fun as it is. Ugh.

-In a moment of mindless hormonal passion, I performed oral sex on my boyfriend for about 5 seconds before I stopped and began to cry, because I felt so horribly guilty...and he felt bad about it all, too. I still feel guilt to this day, even though it didn't last long and I know God forgave me...But even if oral sex isn't regarded as "technical" sex, I still feel like my virginity is gone and I wish I could go back in time and fix it. I regret it more than anything, ever. I never want to make that kind of mistake again before I marry.

-I enjoy taking the joy out of others lives. I'm not joking... I get jollies out of others pain. But I have tact to go along with it.

-I hate being around people that I'm not really good friends with.-I'm terrified of calling the wrong phone number. Terrified. I also don't like calling people's house phones because I hate it when their parents answer.-I was in an after school jazz band at school last year (piano) and I joined again this year but I really don't like it anymore and I feel like I owe it to my band teacher to stay in it because she's been so nice to me the past two years.-There's no place that I feel really comfortable except for home, but only when I'm by myself.-I have a massive crush on this friend of mine (of almost three years) that I know over t3h intarnets. He's seriously the sweetest, most humble, most adorable kid ever. But alas, he lives in England and is two years older than me.-Most of my friends listen to random pop stuff and every time I try to get them to listen to something else, they don't like it and I feel like a pretentious prick.

-I can say all the FreeCreditReport.com's commercials-I can say the whole Law and Order: SVU opening sequence-When I smile, my eyes squint so I look wicked fat (lmao)-I pretend to smoke my chapstick with the cap on from the spinner at the bottom-I tried Bud Light when I was 13.-I'm an expert at making Gifs-I enjoy taking pictures of myself and altering them on Paint Shop Pro 7.-Because of Edward Cullen, my friends are calling me a vampire because I'm as pale as sin and I'm wicked ass cold. >_<-I get accused of being anorexic a lot-I stutter when I talk-I have an "evil stare" and I show it to everyone in the hallway while listening to Heavy metal on my iPod.-I didn't finish my math homework even when I told my mom that I did.-I'm the only one in my school that understands how you get herpes in your throat and doesn't go "EWWWW!!!!"-I don't weak makeup-My dad and I don't go a day without making eachother laugh.-I don't like my mom because she treats every small situation as life threatening. (I.E. When I don't feel like taking a shower she thinks I'm going to die of Body Odor)-I haven't had my.... WOMAN’S TIME OF THE MONTH yet and I need an ultrasound-I never learned to swallow a pill and when I did it the first time I choked on one.-I'm terrified of calling people's houses and asking for them because most of the time, they answer.-I get hurt very easily-I broke my arm by falling off a bunk bed and landing my arm on a cell phone while hitting the ground-I suffer from paranoia at night. Every time I hear a progressing noise in my breeze way I always think someone's inside and I have my phone standing by.-I'm the last person in my school to get a crappy phone and a Wii.-I fantasize about making a pair of nunchakus, modifying them with spinning blades, and throwing them like boomerangs around the room, killing everyone.

-I'm scared of dolls. No shit, they freak me out so much.-I've had several crushes over the past few months, one e-crush on a person on here (If you can guess her name, have a cookie), but I accept that it can't work. Damn shame, too. -I'm really shy when it comes to asking out girls. It probably comes off as, "Aww, how sweet," to you guys, but it's my worst nightmare. Part of the reason I'm in my current predicament.-I can be oblivious to current situations.-I play Pokemon and Viva Pinata religiously.-I didn't care for Dead Rising. -I stutter a lot. -Apparently my crotch is made of steel. I've taken several hits there in the past month and it barely hurt.-I haven't been in a relationship in almost 3 months, and I hate every minute of being single. -I roleplay things in my head when I get bored. -I like to act like a ninja around the house, sneaking around even when nobody's around. If anybody saw, I'd probably look like a special kid.-I like being scared. Not many people work well under stress, but I'm one of them. -I write in pen on my arm when I get bored. It alternates between tiger stripes, a stick Pyramid Head, and notes to people. -In Japanese class I like to twirl my pen in my hair and keep it in there. -Apparently I'm the best writer in the Class of 2011 at my school. Kinda sad, really.

-I sneak into the guys bathroom at school and drop tampons that have been soaked in yummy stuff that resembles blood in the the urinals and toilets when the halls aren't busy. xD

-I'm worried that I'm a disposable friend that people only hang out with as long as they need encouragement in life, then they up and leave because I'm "independent" when in reality, I really, really need a friend.

-One time in a seventh grade girls "health" thing, we all got "kits" with the works and this one kid left his locker unlocked so a bunch of people put theirs in his locker.

-When I can't sleep, I roleplay things out in my head. It makes me tired and I get to sleep easily.-I love bubble baths.-Nostalgia is wonderful. I love the feeling it gives you.-Been a pokemon fan since I was 5. Don't plan on quitting.-I don't want kids. I hate screaming children.-I hate most insects.-There's no one I really like right now. It's sad, but my ex-crush is a fucking dick.-I curse a bit too much.

-I resent my mother for being an overly controlling nag.

-I can't stand it when other people wash the dishes, because someone always leaves bits of stuff stuck to them. -I feel inferior to my brother whenever he compares us and I hate it.-I hate that I have no drive to do anything that would better myself.-I'm scared I won't have an idea for a career before I graduate.-It makes me sad that I can only open up to my bestie and no one else.-I'm angry that I can't get myself to talk to that one boy when I could do something like that when I was younger.-I'm scared of anyone in my family dying.-I'm unsure of my religion and my sexuality.-I find it strange that I can accept my body, when no one else seems to accept theirs.-I also thinks it's weird that I can accept my body, but not have confidence in myself.

-My friend asked me to convince his girlfriend to dump him, his girlfriend also happens to be my best friend.

-I'm terrified of the dark. I absolutely HATE being in complete darkness. Yes, I sleep with a night light. A cool paper lantern nightlight.-I'm scared of calling people cause I fear calling the wrong number ^^'-I have very, very, very strange dreams. Mostly involving people being eaten and..demented ladybugs.-I cannot believe how obsessed I was with .hack//sign when I was younger. I was convinced it was going to happen in the future.-I'm a secret chocolate glutton.-I sometimes play hentai games when I'm bored.-I find any and all porn ridiculous.-I play with my food a lot.-I like the feeling of being hungry..yeah. Don't ask.

-I am transgender. FTM, specifically.-I smoke. But only three times every year (more or less) because I don't want to have any addiction.-I am a self-injurer. I started when I was a child because it was the only way I could let the anger out without consecuences, and now I can't stop. I'm not emo or anything; kids who slash their arms open just to be "emo" should be hanged, they make life difficult to those who already suffer and have to be made fun of because of that. It was probably connected with my more religious younger-self...I used to make up specific punishments anytime I "sinned" or did something bad (things like "100 scratches on each limb every time I commit unpure acts", "10 punches at my face everytime I say a lie"). My younger self was even more fucked up than my semi-adult self. (My younger brother started doing this too. I don't know what to do I'm starting to think it's genetic or something...maybe it's just because we had the same parents.)-I write NC17 stories on AFF. With very fucked up stuff in it. I'm sort of trying to push my boundaries and see what I can stand to write about without feeling sick. And releasing a lot of frustration.-I think I am sadomasochist; this is probably because my parents tried to make me stop masturbating when I was younger by beating me up everytime. Also, they would always have horrible punishments for me, like breaking up my toys if I made them mad or using an hammer to destroy my favourite movies until I stopped crying. But I was never able to stop crying until I learned to hurt myself to calm down. Also, I kept having these horrible fantasies in which people got eaten up by giant carnivorous plants, or killed in horrible ways, or beaten up or whipped while their most loved stuff was being destroyed in front of their eyes. And I would get turned on by some scenes on movies and/or cartoons or TV shows, and felt very embarassed about it.And I have to put up with my mother (who doesn't know about it) that everytime the subject comes around because of some movie or something will not shut up and keeps wondering loudly how could some people be so sick in the head to get pleasure for getting hurt.-I can stand almost anything in hentai and porn, except for scat. Even guro doesn't bother me, unless it includes disembowelment.Or babies put into blenders. -I possess shota porn. I do not own any actual CP, but I do own quite an amount of shota. I plan on getting rid of it when I turn 18 to avoid any problems.-I suspect I am an ephebophile. I really do not want to be one, and I would never act it out anyway, but I'm 17 and it still hasn't passed. I still hope it's just a phase. I don't want to be considered a monster. Please let it be just an horrible phase.-I hate my mother. Seriously. She fucked up my whole life. And she keeps on blaming me for stupid stuff, and accusing me of having a bad influence on my brother.-I had to be stopped from attempting suicide at least three times. By my ex-best-online-friend. Now the only things that keeps me alive is my hope for transition and my vocation for literature. If any of those two were to disappear, I'll die.

-My anxiety has come back.-I'm terrified of being around people.-I don't trust anyone.

-When I'm at work, I listen to explicit, NC-17 slash podfic on my iPod. I tell people that it's a stand-up comedy CD, and that's why I'm smiling so widely. ^_~

-I don't trust people-I've been used by a lot of people and still am but now I just ignore it-I can't let grudges go -I get very depressed if I'm not obsessed with something because that means I don't have my own little world to live in.-I hate being around people (People currently in my RL life I mean)

-Sometimes when I look in a mirror I just space out looking at my eyes. It's not a vanity thing and it's not like my eyes are exceptionally interesting (CHOKOLAT BROWN POOLS OF BEYOOTY LOLZ) I just tend not to look people in the eye so I find them fascinating. Or something.-I alternate between facial features that I'm insecure about. My eyebrows, my lips, my nose, etc.-I'm fat even though I eat better than a lot of my friends. I cook with olive oil, they use butter. I can't stand the texture of ground beef and most of the stuff that goes into fast food, they go out to McDonald's religiously. I order a salad and they order nachos. and yet I'm at around the same weight if not outweighing them by a long shot. -_- Even now my family is in the other room eating sloppy joes and I'm waiting for them to clear out of the kitchen so I can heat up some soup. Sigh. /angst-A lot of people tell me how smart I am, but I don't think that's it. Really I'm just obsessive about knowledge. I know so much random crap because I can't stand being ignorant about ANYTHING. Even now, I'm researching Opera and classical singers because someone on a different forum site started a thread and I realized I hardly knew what they were talking about.

-I have a crush on my English teacher, but then again so does half the class. -My cat Taki is my Pretty Girl, and my other cat Max is my Best Buddy. -I'm slowly becoming a Japanophile. If there's anything with Japanese on it like food I'm like, "OMG I must have it!"-I'm a Christian, but I disagree with most of the commandments and I just have trouble believing that God would do some stuff just to prove he's better than everybody else.

-I have a cycling list of cynical thoughts which pop into my head every now and then. They include the following: As I'm getting out of a car, I close the door while my other hand is still in the way. The hand gets really cut up. I'm scratching my dog's head, and as I scratch backwards, I pull too hard. Yeah...not a pretty sight/thought. For no explainable reason, I die in school or my brother dies in school.

-Once, for like a month...I had a crush on this boy. It was shallow because I only thought he was attractive, so it wasn't a big thing. I didn't tell anyone. Then one day I hung out with two of my friends, and one of them points to the boy and goes "OMG! There goes (insert name here) again. He's the most annoying 9-year old ever!" And it stopped there. I didn't know he was nine. Good god. I felt like Jacob Black...how embarrassing...

- I find my Science teacher attractive. Not crush level, but still attractive. Very attractive.- I have a crush on this girl that looks like she hasn't even left 6th grade.- I'm not gay, despite what other people think.- I have no armpit hair. I see girls with more than I have.- I need to exercise more. I may be the weakest boy in my school. Well, maybe not WEAKEST, but still not strong enough. I'm so scrawny. ;_;- I trust people on the internet much more than I do people I know in real life.

-I have strange sadistic thoughts concerning people I don't like.-I have a secret (or not so secret) phobia of being trapped in a dark room-I freak out if I find hair in the bathtub. Ewww.-I frequently have nightmares about eating-The first thing I look at when I see a guy..the hands. So all you guys out there, take care of them, some girls really like clean, nice looking hands!-I often have dreams about smexing with one of my female friends..who I don't even know in RL O_o

- I'm afraid of dying alone and unloved- I'm worried that someday I will finally snap and punch someone out at school. Or start screaming at them. - I used to tell my Best guy friend & my best friend everything, and then they hooked up. So I stopped telling them more and more. Even though they broke up, I can't bring myself to talk to them about the stuff that's bothering me. I feel like my problems are a burden if I told them. - I tend to upset people because I do things without thinking about them, and I'm honest to a fault. And the thing is, I really don't care what they think, unless they mean something to me. And even then, sometimes I don't.

-Despite my appearance and my sometimes... admittedly brilliant acting, I've never done drugs. Seriously, long hair on guys doesn't mean that they do drugs! Why people can't get that through their heads, I have no idea.

-I hope I find a soul mate. Someone who'll be a trustworthy to me as I would be to them. Someone to spend the rest of my life with.-I don't want to die old and alone.

-I'm strangely only attracted to Asians O.o-I used to think little people lived inside me, lol-Haha..I had a crush on Link from LOZ when I was little. Can't say it's gotten better XDD

- Like many others on this thread, I really like my best friend. He's just...*sigh* clever and wonderful and funny and tall and brilliant and sweet and all these other great things. And then I sort of hate him too because he can be a huge jerk.- I can't make out with boys. I've never been in a situation where it felt natural to just start doing it and I refuse to do kissing dares too, because I know I'll be awful and the boy I kissed will judge me and tell everyone what a crap kisser I am. I actually would rather kiss a girl for a dare even though I'm straight, because at least you're not expected to be good if you're not into it.- I'm quite a masculine girl lol, in personality and dress sense, and I go for boys that are a little effeminate so we can balance each other out.- It kills me inside that I struggle with maths. I would do anything to be good at it.- I love singing even more than food, and that's saying something. It's just the best thing ever.- I like writing about myself, haa.- I hate people who take loads of pictures of themselves. It's pathetic. :|

-I'm in love with my best friend who is, unfortunately, a girl.

-I want to have penguin butlers. No lie. -I hate going to movies with my date. I just can't find somebody with the same taste in movies as me. -I should have more secrets, but... I can't think of them right now.

-I'm in love with a guy whose name I don't know. Well, maybe not love, more like infatuated. BUT GOSH HE'S GOT NICE EYES.

-er...me and my friends cheated on our science test. In our defense, the teacher made us sit outside, (together), unsupervised while the rest of the class watched a movie. It was because we had a school trip that day and missed the test. In the end, all of us got a 100%.

-I was the one who cracked the mirror in the girl's changeroom. XD By accident.

-I broke a mirror at the university by accident. My friend was chasing me and I ran into it, shattering it completely.

- I finally realized why I can't talk to some people, while I can with others. It's because I'm so afraid of being judged or misunderstood. With the people I can talk to, I never get worried if I sound stupid or anything. - And upon realizing that first thing, I'm sad to know that along with my fear of being judged or misunderstood, I don't trust my brother. That's why I can't open up to him. D':

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-I want to forget about becoming a nurse and pack up my bags, get a one way ticket, and fly to London to live out my sweet but tortured poet bad boy fantasy. Seriously.

-I have a bit of a crush on yet another fictional character. This ones from one of my favorite nostalgic series. And it's a female character. -I once read an NC-17 yaoi doushinji. 0_0 It still gives me images I'd rather not see.

-I think I'm in love with my friends boyfriend

-I have a "Bad-Dragon" sex toy... no comments there.

-I often think about biting into my own skin so I can see what it feels like.

-I used to be a RABID Backstreet Boys' fangirl

-I hate peanut butter. Seriously. It's nasty.

-My (male) roommate and I share clothes and he looks better in them then I do.

-I'm afraid to be alone. But I think I'm also afraid to be forgotten more. -I still mask up my emotions sometimes, in spite of having gotten better on being "open" or "honest" with my feelings these days. So, chances are, people have gotten fooled when I tell them I'm all right. Even those close to me, sometimes.-I always wonder when I'll ever truly smile from the bottom of my heart. Even when I catch myself smiling a lot these days, it still feels a little false and I don't know why. Maybe I'm still afraid to get hurt.-Even though I still plan to be a writer or editor when I graduate from college, I wonder if I'll be able to survive in having such a career. I often doubt on this a lot, feeling that my love for writing and being good at it may not be enough.-Speaking of that, I found out from one of my aunts that my mom is still hoping I'd shift into nursing instead of going through writing (hehe, of course, the aunt who's assigned to be my guardian here bit her head off for it right after). And I want to say this to her yet again: I DO NOT intend to go into the medical field, PERIOD, and that's FINAL. And either way, I wouldn't listen to her since I would've either stuck to the CA (Comm. Arts) department, which I'm in now, or the HRM (Hotel/Restaurant Management) department because I like immersing into the arts.-I hate it when my flaws are constantly pointed out because I'm painfully aware on what they are and I'm doing all I can to change that, so they can shut up about it. And I don't know which person makes me feel worse on this subject: my mother or my BOYFRIEND when we fight.-I hate it when people talk behind my back; moreso if I'm right within earshot.-I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place A.K.A. I seem to be in a love triangle again; only, this time, it's the first that I have feelings for BOTH people involved (because, normally, most of my love triangles concerned with people suddenly confessing their feelings to me, despite being aware I already have a boyfriend, and I reject them without a second thought because these are the guyfriends that I don't look at as boyfriend material). Honestly, I've a boyfriend, whom I've been in a long term, but long distance, relationship with for four years (things have recently gotten difficult with the distance and timezones). And, on the other hand, for some odd reason, I have unknown feelings for a guyfriend here who was my first friend when I transferred to college in the Philippines. The thing is? My boyfriend knows everything about this (before, he was understanding about it and said it's all about how I feel; then, I think he took it back because, recently, he told me I should forget about the feelings for my guyfriend) while my guyfriend remains, thankfully, oblivious to this whole situation. Besides, I don't know why I'm like this as my senses are telling me this is most likely one-sided, especially when this certain guyfriend has clarified to me a few times that I'm a close friend of his and he looks at me as a sister. On the other hand... XD The majority of the CA department (and friends from other course departments; Hell, even one of our PROFESSORS) SUSPECTS AND KNOWS about this freakin' dilemma. Hell, another close guyfriend (whom the first guyfriend introduced me to) who hangs around this certain guyfriend and I every day in school KNOWS EVERYTHING and he was one of the last people I wanted nor expected to know about this (thankfully, he's keeping this as a secret, but he's been teasing me about it; recently, he says I'm in denial of this whole matter when I have declared I wasn't), which proves the guy I seem to like is slow. Slow, yes. XD IN EVERY SENSE OF THE WORD. I don't know what to do about this whole thing, but I'm letting things stay the way they are right now. And, God forbid, I hope these feelings for this friend won't grow or it's really going to be problematic. And to lay out the whole triangle business... It's basically like this: Boyfriend <-----> Me ?----->? Guyfriend.

-I enjoy participating in pairing wars.

-Passage of time gets me very anxious and depressed, so I don't like looking at old pictures and yearbooks.-Me and my sister, though we never stated it, have a little competition on Mario games. We always try to be better than the other.... -When I wake up every morning, even if I'm tired and want to go back to sleep I have to brush my teeth. It just feels so icky and ugh. Same thing with showering. Even if I took one the night before, I must shower everyday, because I feel so unclean and dirty.-I've had weird thoughts during church. I feel so bad because they are so sadistic and bloody.-I know I sound like Bella, but sunny days make me so depressed. Rainy days makes me feel happy.

-I hate looking at photos because I used to always act happy even though I was not happy at all. So I see the photos and think WHY ARE YOU SMILING!? YOU'RE JUST MAKING IT WORSE!!!

-My sister and I have an unspoken competition in all mario games. I win 99% of the time, because I'm a gaming nerd loser. So when my sister wins, I can't believe it and she boasts for aaaages.

-I hate sunny and warm days. They drain me of energy o_O Both creative and physical It's frustrating!!

-I have decided that if I don't succeed as a musician (even if that means having enough money to eat), I shall go and live in a cabin in the middle of nowhere like Mort Rainey from secret window (wtf?) and severe all contact with the human world because humans annoy me. Seriously. But I'll have my dogs o_O

-I cried when I find out King of the Hill is being canceled. :c

-I think I said this before but I have a humongous crush on my internet buddy from England. Humongous.

-I think women with short hair are very intimidating.

- I kind of want to have to survive some kind of apocalyptic scenario, just to see if I could cut it and to break up the monotony of life.- I like getting paper cuts; I think they feel cool. I don't tell anyone because I think it makes me seem like a masochist. - I kept going to church for some time after I stopped believing in god because I had a crush on the youth minister.

-When I was active on dA, I always faved and not comment on deviations because all my comments would sound the same. Seriously, I don't want to say that's awesome/wonderful/breathtaking all the damn time. >_<

-I'm questioning my religion right now, though I haven't completely lost faith, I disagree a lot with the church. But anyhoo, one of reasons I go to church every Sunday is to see this boy I have a crush on. He's not there every Sunday, but I go every sunday just in case. I know....I'm shallow. Another reason is a priest comes in to teach us religion once in a while, and he makes you feel so bad about not going to mass.

-I used to think I was Sailor moon XDDD (hey, I was like..8 or 9)-I had a crush on this weird guy in 6th grade. Yeeah that didn't last long, especially after I caught him writing 666 all over everything and drawing pictures of him killing people..-I still have a crush on the exchange student from Taiwan :C-I secretly like the feeling of being hungry.

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-One day, in middle school, I were in a small, semi-closed room with two female classmates of mine (we were in a teathre, watching Porgy and Bess) and I had a lot of gas in my belly...and couldn't prevent myself from farting for the whole morning, but I was too embarassed to admit it so I blamed the teacher that was with us in the room! (Not like I told them he did it or something, they just sort of assumed it and I didn't tell them the truth...). After that day they told some people he did it, and I kinda felt sorry for the guy now.

-I choke when I'm scared.

-Whenever something happens to my karma {whether it goes up or down}, I always wonder what I said to make it go up or down. xP

-I like things to be nice and orderly, but I can't keep my room clean for more than two weeks.

-I'm asthmatic . (Gah! It's soo embarrassing because I'm like on all my school's sports teams and I'm in just about all of my school's sports day races.... EXCEPT THE FUN ONES *sobs uncontrollably* *Regains control*)-When I see a horror movie on TV, I become absolutely transfixed with it and can't tear myself away. Usually I even wiki it and find out the whole story behind it. The Jigsaw Killer from the 'Saw' movies is actually a deductive genius who is really smart but tragically misguided.-My friend has blow jobbed her cousin.... she's fourteen....-My other friend has cut herself on multiple occasions (not anymore though) and has had sex with her long distance boyfriend (now anyway) at least four times.... she's fourteen too...-Usually once a month during my period something says something that normally wouldn't bother me but at that time I take it really badly and run off to the bathroom to sob, it's getting better though.-Not so much a secret, but my mom once beat up a beggar woman that called her a slut right at the entrance of the city zoo.... we all felt so proud of her [/sarcasm]-My brother watches and plays porn/ games and is absolutely terrible at hiding it, much to my uncomfortableness. Seriously, the big oaf has it saved so that when his Firefox starts up it's in one of his saved tabs! And a dirty game is on his start up menu! WTF?!-My dad's probably knocked and/ or the dad of a kid of a woman in the city he works in. Srsly, the males in my family branch are the worst at hiding explicit materials EVOR.

-I didn't join cross country out of my ability to run fast for a really long. I did it cause it was the only sport I had laft that I hasn't tried and sucked at when I was in the 7th grade

-I have only had one boyfriend. We broke up a few months ago and he dumped through a text. We got past it and are friends but I still love him very much. He's a senior and I'm a junior. He's a good friend and teammate. But sadly he's dating a freshman. I miss him.

-Sometimes, I wish that my ex-friend and I still talked (even if he was a jerk sometimes) because he was one of the few guys that understood me. I've made everyone think I hate him and never want anything to do with him again, but I don't really feel that way. -I want my writing ability back. It seems that I've kind of lost it over these past few months.

-I don't think my friends like me. Everytime I ask to hang out with them, they always have something to do. And it sucks because it's all of my friends that do this. Not just one of them so I normally have no one to hang out with.

-No matter how much I love my best friend, I secretly hate her for not introducing me to her gorgeous cousin. He kissed me three times in her family Thanksgiving party (my first kisses too) and after that, I never saw him. And she has on Christmas. And she told me he turned out to be this dumb, shallow guy, but much sweeter than his twin brother. She told me it's best if I don't even bother. Thing is, I want to bother. I wanna meet him again and talk to him and see for myself what he's really about. I mean, she barely even knows who he is too. And it sucks that I don't even know what school he goes to... or if he even lives in my state!-I actually like getting my period. It's always a reminder for me to know that I became a woman, because I wanted it so, so badly. Yeah, desperate I know. I know.

-I find anything with cupcakes on it THE AWEOME. I don't tell people this cause it's kinda childish.-Watching people eat disgusts me *shudder*-I have a thing for..hands.-I would really, really like to be able to wear a corset on a daily basis O_o

-I get upset really easily-I cry really easily-I failed my Chapter 7 math test-I feel like a total failure, no matter how hard I try--if I get anything less than a 4.0 GPA, I cry, even though I know that my standards are too high.-I feel depressed 75% of the time-I feel guilty about everything-I don't really think I'm a good person

-I got a 26 on a practice ACT, and my projected scoring range is 29-31, a fine number to apply for Universities, or so I've been told. When I got my results back I was so disappointed in myself that I nearly cried. I know that that's... what, the 97th percentile, but I still feel like I could have done so much better. I know I should be pleased with it, and so I haven't told anyone for fear of being judged as one of those uppity "OMG a teacher gave me an A- I'm switching classes and filing a lawsuit" kids, but it still really bothers me.-I have really stalkerish tendancies. Online I'll read all the posts and journals and whathaveyou's of people who's beliefs or outlooks interest me, but hardly ever speak to them. Sometimes I'll extend this post-stalking to their friends and even people they argue or dabate with. I'll make note of certain people's bus numbers or ID codes at school, though that's not a concious thing. And as I said, this isn't lust or some twisted obsession, I'm just fascinated by them but find it difficult to converse with people that I feel I don't understand sufficiently.-I dislike some of my friends, and I have sneaking suspicions that some of them dislike me, too. I'm insecure about the fact that I have trouble reading people, and so I'm on-edge even around people I supposedly should feel comfortable around. Bad experiences with the wrong crowd back before I knew better than to trust people, I suppose...

-I have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). No really, I can't focus on anything at all. I always drift off some where else-When I'm upset I yank my hair and bang my head against the wall several times, sometimes resulting in bruises.-I have suicidal thoughts sometimes, even though I only have mild depression.-One time I made myself throw up just to miss school.-I got three detentions in two weeks.-I'd rather be at home on the weekends than hang out with my friends.-Sometimes my friends irritate me.-I hate my body. And I mean everything about it, I want to find something I like and focus on that really hard but the thing is, there is absolutely nothing I like about it.-I love horror.-You know that material that car seats are usually made of? Well, when somebody scratches that or even if the dog scratches it, I just can't stand. It seriously makes me put my hands over my ears and scream.

-Although I like to think I'm a positive person but I am negative. I point out a lot of mistakes and such, generally making people feel bad. I don't mean too, I love pleasing people. I'm usually the person that tries to make everyone happy but sometimes I am just negative

-- I feel like I'm really annoying all the time.- I can't talk to adults for some reason- I hate talking on the phone.- I'm totally scared of death- I can't cry over death.- I usually hate my dad- Sometime people piss me off that I think of creative ways for them to die- I hate kids

-I hate parties. I hate them SO FUCKING MUCH. I haven't had a birthday party for years... I only ever had birthday parties so people would buy me shit, I always invited heaps of people I didn't like. muahahaha.

-This is my 600th post. =D

-I am officially retarded.-umm, my best friend and her boyfriend had sex a while ago...and she's my age and I feel bad because I normally trash talk people who have sex when there only 14.-I think her ex-bf, the boy she slept with, is really really hot.

-I like a guy who's like, ~IN LOVE~ with my best friend. And I'm not sure I want him to like me back.

-I always fall for the worst guy possible. Like, since the seventh grade all the guys I have fallen for have turned into either:a) potheadsb) drunksc) druggiesd) all of the above.why does my taste SUCK?! I mean I have never dated any of those creeps (because I know to keep my distance) but how come I seem to skip over the good guys for favor of these nasties?!

-When I was in 6th grade, I secretly used my mom's credit card number in order to get a month-long insider membership on IGN.com just so that I could have an icon and the privilege to post pictures. It was only $5.95! ^^;

-I became agnostic/atheistic in the seventh grade and now I'm in ninth and I've never told anybody IRL. I'm afraid it would be really awkward with my church-attending-choir-singing-Catholic-raised-want-me-to-be-confirmed parents.

-Oh, and I've read my little sister's diary. And I occasionally listen in on her phone calls. XD

-I met my fiance online via mutual friends that we both know IRL. >.<

-I first met my ex-girlfriend through the internet.

-Pessimistic personality!

-I really, really hate to take a stand on a lot of things. I used to be so... arrogant, I guess. I had thoughts on everything, and thought I was so smart and deep for thinking what I did. I look at the same things now, and I realize I didn't think at all- I just spewed the same arguements and logic that everyone else on my side did, and didn't have an original thought about anything. Essentially, a "psuedononconformist". Now I don't have clear opinions on anything because I consider so many factors of issues and I worry so much about following generic viewpoints. Coincidentally, I think I'm such an Anti partly because it's so common for people to think Twilight is "alright" or they just "hate the fans, not the fandom". I'm an Anti for a lot of reasons, of course, but the popular neutrality is a factor.

-I also hate reading my posts back to myself and seeing "I"s, "me"s and "I think/believe/feel...", as well as "but"s and "..."s everywhere. It bothers me, and I'm not really sure why.

-I always feel like I have to be like my sister who is perfect. She is smart, pretty, thin and never does anything bad.-I'm not to stupid but not that smart. I get B's mostly. I'm ugly. I'm not thin. I always get in trouble at school.

-I get tongue tied when it comes to arguments, talking on the phone and stuff like that, I tend to avoid them like the plague.-I'm usually a loner by nature, I don't know how to interact with people to be honest.

-When I was about 10 or 11, my friend Eula had a boyfriend named Cole. So one time we called him over and over and his brother kept on answering. So Eula and her totally gay friend Laykan made me call with a fake name. After that, he said, "Tell me your real name or I'll call the cops." Then Eula freaking hung up before we could say anything. I don't hang out with her much anymore.

-I (still) jizz in the shower/bath-I have sadistic homicidal thoughts about my mom-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aD21JDMp86c <Self-Explanatory-I can't stand being alone.-I secretly leave the house and work out every time my parents leave and I'm alone.-I have the police speed dialed on my phone and in a note, I said: "If you found this phone, please hold down the number 4 and report this stolen."-(Concerning ^) I also have another note that says, "This girl's mother is a pedophile who preys on teenage girls" because my mom is obsessed with my boobs O_o

-It's weird, but I'm a male who uses retail therapy to make himself feel better. Since I have no real bills, I basically squander all my money on books and Star Wars toys, in an attempt to fill a void. The only reason I get away with it is because I tell my parents I found really good deals on Ebay. -I'm really afraid of my manipulation and lying abilities.-I find it easier to make friends and be honest with them on the internet. -I'm pretty positive I'm bisexual. Either gender is attractive to me. -I have no real relationships in real life. It scares me that I'm an adult now and any other person my age would most likely expect me to want sex, which I am not ready to give. -On the other hand of the above statement, I desperately want to meet someone who, as cliche as it sounds, completes me, who makes me feel like there is no one else for me. -At 21, ten months from now, I plan to run away. I have no real idea where I'm going or how I'll afford to get there, but I'll manage somehow. -At 21, I also can't wait to get drunk. I don't mean like getting totally plastered. I just want that pleasant numb/light feeling. -It would be so AWESOME to me if there were a zombie apocalypse. I'd love to be in a situation where social standing, education and occupation failed to matter. -I'm terribly socially inept. I'm pretty sure other people, even on the internet, can sense it. -I say I like personality more than looks, but really, I'm just as shallow as anyone else. -Back in high school, I let people believe I was a stoner. I had no other identity, so it was an easy one to take. -I have a telephone phobia and it hinders whatever social life I could possibly have. -I also have what I call a heroism complex. I consistently imagine myself in situations where I save a lot of people, get killed, and then am remembered for generations to come. -Related to the above statement, I think, that if I died in a normal way, no one would remember or miss me. -I play male and female characters on World of Warcraft. A lot of people do this...but when someone asks what my characters are, I only name those that are male.

-There's this girl who sits next to me, and she is the most annoying, spoiled bitch I've ever met. But God! She is so goddamn pretty, I think I have girl-crush on her. Or, possibly bi for her...I don't know what that's called. She's the only girl I've ever found myself staring at and possibly drooling over... Yeah, I'm pretty confused!

-I'm secretly pretty lonesome.

-There is one person in this world I want to kill.

-My natural hair color is shit brown.

-I think I'm developing a phobia of sunlight. I've been putting on sunblock every morning that I have time, I've started strategically planning the seats on the bus and in class that I sit in to avoid direct sunlight as much as possible, and when I get home more and more often I'll close all the blinds in the house or go to the basement with my laptop. My initial excuse was that I will be cosplaying a vampire in November and the less stage makeup I need to apply for basic skin tone, the more dramatic effects I'll be able to do, but now it's just pathological avoidance of all situations that would involve going outside while it's light out.

-i'm bisexual (but that's not the secret) the thing is, for me to have sex with a guy, i have to be in love with him... MADLY but to have sex with a girl... doesn't take much. i can think, "she cute" and i'd bang her in a second. if i had discovered my sexuality before i had gotten together with my boyfriend, i would've slept with a LOT of girls

-My dad is probably one of the causes of my depression but I don't even know if I'm really depressed or if I just seek some sort of attention.

-I pretty much run from my thoughts. I don't even know who I really am.

-I'm a pretty sadistic even though I act nice.

-I don't like myself.

-I have a crush on the guy that sits next to me in English and behind me in History, but I always tell people that I hate him when they mention him. The guy has the same name as a Twilight character.

-I'm really, really scared for next year, because absolutely all of the friends that I really and truly enjoy hanging out with and can hang out with on weekends, swap music with, borrow clothes from, compliment freely and receive compliments from, gossip with, and so on and so forth with all that girly crap-- anyway, they're all eighth graders. I'm a seventh grader. I will have to survive nine months without seeing my friends daily. I barely have any close friends in my grade-- actually, scratch that, I don't have any close friends in my grade. I have plenty of seventh grade friends, but I'm way closer with the eighth graders.-Continuing from my last secret, I hate hanging out with most kids my age because I just find them too immature and shallow. That's probably why I like hanging out with people older than me-- we're on much closer emotional wavelengths.-I often feel that a lot of kids my age don't like me. Yet again, I feel more comfortable with eighth graders than my fellow seventh graders.-I feel guilty about everything. Fucking everything.-I always feel horrible whenever I've fought with someone, and I find it really emotionally exhausting to try to pretend that I'm just as apathetic as everyone else.-I really enjoy the company of one of the most picked-on kids at school, but I can never talk to him because all my friends hate him.-There are a lot of times when I just want to tear out people's hair and scream because they are so fucking hypocritical.-I can't stand seeing kids picking on each other, but I can never think of a way to intervene that would work. No matter what the child psychologists say, kids standing up for each other does nothing except add one more kid to the blacklist.-I'm insanely jealous of Rat from the Snarkout Boys books. I just really wish that I was like her, but I'm the polar opposite.-A lot of the adults in town are just as immature and cruel as teenagers.

-I love thinking about me and some girl mating, while I rub myself on the corner of my bed.

-I'm a sadist. I positively love it when people suffer. Complaining about how shitty your life is is music to my ears. (Yeah, I know, I'm evil.)-I'm know that, if I get elected as a Congressman or elected to any high position, I'll abuse it like everyone else. In other words, become a corrupt, self-serving bastard.

-I feel wonderfully smug about my writing skills whenever I win a debate, out-smart an adult, or get a high grade on an essay... and then I go on here and all my delusions of being a good writer are shattered, because compared to most other people on here, I'm really quite dull and average in my writing.

-I really may seem arrogant when I talk IRL to people, but I really hate myself. Maybe I AM arrogant and just pretending to think every bit of me is awful to feel justified and noble, but if I have, I have definitely, definitely forgotten. And I belittle myself loudly around people. Maybe for sympathy? I tend to automatically add little bits about how I "don't deserve this" or follow-ups about how horrible I think I am. I'm doing it right now.-I used to be suicidal. Very. I at least didn't have messed-up fantasies about it. I just really wished I were dead. Sometimes I would lie in bed and plead with God, asking Him to kill me. But I think I'm too much of a coward to really have done anything. I told my friends via IM when I was miserable, and I don't know what I expected. But one kept getting annoyed with me for mentioning it and told me to shut up. The other just replied '...'. When I asked her months later why, she told me, "I didn't think you'd kill yourself." And the sad thing is, she's right. -All of the secrets above are pretty much public. I display them to EVERYONE to some slight extent, and yet no one seems to have the sense to get me some help, if needed. Maybe I'm just making them worse than they are?-I once laughed at my father when he was crying. Not to his face, but I just laughed and laughed quietly to myself. I'm so completely awful. I do regret it, even if I sometimes think of him as whiny. I also pushed my father to anger because I felt like it. I said the things I thought were the most infuriating, just so he'd get angry. -When I was like three or four, I wanted to marry my father. I told that to my friends once, and they responded with an understandable "WTF?". I know it's messed up.-I should be a vegetarian. I really should be, but I'm not. I should be, but I still can't conjure a desire to be, and besides, I can't get all my protein from peanut butter, even though I sometimes eat it by itself. I used to be vehemently against fur, but I really can't find that compassion anymore. But I still cried when I read about aerial hunting. -I like reading people's journals. (Livejournal ones, not private diaries.) I have a burning interest in them, and what they do, even if I don't know/admire the person. Similarly, I relished the secrets in this thread. They're just so interesting!

-I actually really like anime, even though I tell everyone I know I hate it. The only reason I say I hate it is 'cause my brother punched me in the stomach when I borrowed an anime dvd from my friend when I was like 6, and he basically yelled at me about how stupid and retarded it is for hours. Now I'm afraid that if I admit liking it he'll make fun of me...-Also, I'm a stoner. :|

-For a little while my post was the last one on this thread. I was terrified I had killed it by revealing my secrets.

-I hate everyone who reminds me of myself.

-I'm a fantasy reader... only I can't seem to be interested in anything but! ><

-Everybody assumes I'm a stoner, and I really don't make a good case for myself for proving otherwise. My coordination is terrible, though I can catch my balance relatively well. My eyes are almost always bloodshot due to allergies, I sound kind of spacey when I talk, and I have the appetite to usually down a 16oz burger in 3 minutes. -I really hate constantly being asked questions. I don't mind if they're interspersed in a conversation, but one after another really grates on my nerves

-Sometimes I hate having a vagina.-I'm still a virgin, even though I told several people that I'm not.-I could gladly become a hermit.-I like animals more than I like other people.-I no longer care about humanity as a whole.

-My right front tooth is chipped, and I don't know how it got like that.

-My front right tooth is chipped too and I don't know how or when it got like that! HOLY SHIT!

--I have a crush on Alton Brown. I want to be like him if I go into culinary arts <3-I am a really, really indecisive person. I have to think about something a billion times before I decide on it.-I watch hentai, for the lulz.-My super-secret hobby is organizing things.

-I rarely have empathy for things. I want to empathize, but I just...can't.

-I can't whistle.-I can't click my fingers.

-The doctor told my mom and dad that I was supposed to be a girl before I was born. Turned out to be a guy. So, my mom and dad had to dress me in nothing but pink diapers for the first six weeks of my life. XD Maybe that's why I have no aversion to the color pink.

-I'm worried that I have an undiagnosed mental illness.

-Whenever people on the forums mention details of their lives that are similar to people I know, I look at all of their posts to see if it might be them.-I'm worried that I might be developing a crush on a boy that I hate. Who my friend likes. Fun, huh?-People always tell me that I'm smart, but I'm really insecure. I constantly worry that I'll never be anything more than middle-of-the-road intelligent.

-If I touch certain things, like a school textbook, I have to wash my hands before I touch anything else in my house. If I don't, I freak out.-I am deathly afraid of spiders. Even pictures of them put me on the verge of tears.-I have passed out multiple times and have even fallen down a set of stairs because of it, and told my parents I tripped.-I think I may have a mental issue and sometimes I wonder if I should be in an asylum. I hallucinate, talk to things people can't see, and I sometimes become really weird acting (almost like I'm high or something) and panic that household objects and my shadow are trying to kill me. (Yeah, I hear you laughing at meee...not funneh).-I harm myself. Don't get me wrong, I know how bad that is and that you should never, ever do that, but I've been purposefully bruising/pinching/punching/cutting myself since I was about 5. I can't see the good in any situation without it being shoved in my face, and even then I couldn't care less. People can (and have) choked people in front of me and I just don't have the capacity to care.-I am dating my best friend who is also the same gender as me, she's hit me, bitched at me for no reason, and has caused me to have several miniature mental and/or emotional breakdowns, and my parents know absolutely nothing.

-Anyway, I mentioned this elsewhere, but I've got ants getting into my room. I believe I've found the place that they're getting in from and I haven't seen any since I put a second layer of superglue over the crack an hour or two ago, but since it's night time I suppose I won't find out until tomorrow if I've halted their conquest. I set out a poison bait near the spot last night but I'm fairly sure that my father came across it and disposed of it today. He hasn't confronted me about it yet, and that's almost more distressing than if he got mad at me.

-Watching my best friend and his boyfriend makes me wish I could have a proper relationship.

-For most of my life, I've been led to believe I have above-average intelligence. Thing is, now I'm pretty sure it's just average. -I'm 20, an adult now. I should be able to act independently. But, I could really use some sort of parental, strong guidance. Too bad there's no one to provide it and I'm way too old to qualify for any sort of mentor program.-If it turns out I'm no good at writing, I might as well kill myself. Not to sound emo or anything. But I literally have no other talents. (Obviously, I'm not even sure writing counts as a "talent".)

-I have a crush on my 61 year old European history teacher. And before you go "EW", he looks much younger than he is (about 40ish-45ish). My boyfriend and I laugh it off, but I really do admire my teacher...a lot.

-I am sixteen and I don't know if I'm straight, bi, or gay. But it doesn't bother me.

-I think I'm in love with one of my friends... who's almost 18. I'm 14. And I'm pretty sure I scared him away. :<

-Almost every night, when I'm lying in bed watching television, I cuss at the air for no apparent reason.

-I think I'm bi.-I'm agnostic and only my two sisters and some of my friends know.

-I'm Atheist and I want people to know this, but I'm scared about how they'll react which is why I'm trying to make it known to everyone on this board know I'm Atheist so I can feel like I'm telling someone and people don't care whether or not I'm Christian.

-I validate myself through hurting other people and sleeping around.

-I'm sixteen and I still watch Arthur on PBS. XD

-I lie on the internet. A lot. I'm also quite good at bluffing and pulling things out of my ass. I'm always terrified of being called out on my bullshit, but since it's never happened I think I've developed a "teenage invincibility complex".

-I have a crush on an emo guy

-I have this guy friend I'm close with. I've honestly never felt any romantic feelings toward him, not even now. But I'm jealous of his girlfriend. Very jealous. And I don't know why. I don't even like him like that.

-I didn't yet tell my mom I had an abortion, not will I. Neither did I tell her I'm no longer Christian. Damn :/

-I didn't tell her about my fiance for a good 6 months after our engagement. I just didn't have the guts because she told me "If I ever see you with a foreigner, I'll kick you out of the house." I guess it scared me :/ Tho now she actually is quite fond of him and likes him *phew*

-I lie to protect people :/ It got me in trouble occasionally, but I've kept some lies up for all my life just to protect the ones I love. Yes, it's wrong, I know... I've apologized for some, but.. That's just me.

-I'm the offspring of a midget. Not a huge secret, but it's a great story, especially considering I'm 6'1.

-I'm demisexual. And I'm not sure if I should talk about it. I feel like my boy crazy friends would look down on me. Plus, the whole thing's so obscure, and there seems to be some debate on whether it's actually are real thing, but goddammit, it fits.

-I may be depressed.

-I almost never shave my legs because I always manage to wound myself with the damn razor.

-I lie. Constantly. About the tiniest things. But not on the Internet, not much.-I'm an atheist, and I'm proud of it.-I have discovered recently that I'm considered to be something of a (insert word I would never say, or type) by my various friends and acquaintances.-It makes my day when my math teacher tells me that I'm her best tutor.

-I'm for gay marriage and abortion, but my entire family is against it.-I pretend nothing bothers me because of my history of crying over small things. -I'm the most paranoid person you'll ever meet. I thought my teacher would fail me because of an essay that she thought was excellent, but she was really saying that because she felt sorry for me.-My best friend annoys me.-I can't stand half of the people at my school.-My teachers think I'm perfect, but I'm really not. I almost always misbehave when their backs are turned.-My dad wants me to go the community college, even thought I'm on the Ivy League track.

-Reading the pages of people who have their own Encyclopedia Dramatica entries makes me feel better about myself. God, even I'm not that messed up. >.>

-I am only 13 years old and already have experienced oral sex.

-I was diagnosed with "communication disorder" and took resource and speech therapy classes all through out school up until now.I own over 100+ language learning materialsI want to kill Applemilk1988 and Magicalpockyusagi (Youtube Weeaboos the latter being a possible troll).

-After a one-night stand has left in the morning, I don't wash my bedsheets until her scent has left them.

-I think that I'm developing a phobia of physical contact. Whenever someone gets too close to me, I'll involuntarily flinch and shrink away as if they're trying to molest me or something. The thought of being touched just ... freaks me out for some reason. I have no idea why.

-On a completely different note, I think that I'm probably bisexual. But I'm afraid to use the term "bisexual" to describe myself because I'm scared that I'll find out later that it's just a phase. And I don't want to add to the whole straight-girl-claiming-to-be-bi-for-attention stereotype, because bisexuals have enough problems with credibility as it is. Thing is, I'm almost certain that I'm bi, so I desperately want to come out, but ... gah, I don't know.

-Since I resolved to tell the truth, I've not been able to tell my family I love them.

-Might be in love with one of my best friends. Who is a girl, and has a boyfriend. *is screwed in life*

-Really, the only secret I can think of is I'm turning 18 soon, my boyfriend has his heart set on moving out into our own place, and while I know that I'll need to move out sometime, I don't want to. I'm a huge homebody who's extremely attached to my parents and I'll miss living here, even if we're only wanting to move, like, 10 minutes away. I'll be incredibly sad to leave my room and my house. n.n

-When I reply to people's threads and they reply back, I like to pretend that we're e-friends. It makes me happy.

-I get really anxious when I'm the last person to post in a thread and it stays like that for a long time. paranoia sets in and I think the silence is the forum's way of saying my post was stupid.

-When I was about 3 I thought those dancing statue guys were real Statues and that one was following me. Also when I was 3 I was scared of a guy in a Panda suit.

-I only post every few days because it takes a while for me to work up the haught to press the "post reply" button. I get all self-conscious about my posts and end up deleting them otherwise, so most of my internet browsing gets done on days that my courage is up.

-About half of the posts I plan on making get deleted before I ever post them. I remember how it took me more than an hour to publish my first post, because I kept on re-reading it and changing it. And even then I felt terrified that I'd either be ignored or told my opinion was stupid. Yeah, I was a little very paranoid back then.

-Sometimes, when I finally press the Post Reply button, I'll look at the clock and realize I've obssessed over my post for like 45 minutes. And even before then, I might lose my nerve and delete it all. My fear stems from the fact that a lot of forums aren't open to new users or opinions. They'll bash you no matter what you say and go, "Lol. Look at the noob." An rp chat I go to has a forum, but I would never post there for those reasons.

-Same here, it took me a long time to decide to post... Usually I just lurk for ages. After a while I relax a bit when I see no one is flaming me. But I still feel very uncomfortable when my post is the last one in a thread and no one posts afterwards. I always feel like I said something stupid.

-I once kissed a girl just to make her stop talking... And I enjoyed it.

-When I'm in a good mood, I laugh at literally everything. Like, someone will look at me and I'll just start laughing. I don't really know why. xD

-Whenever I get a video game where I can customize the main character, I always do my best to make him look me and then I give him my name.

-I am terribly, terribly insecure. People are driven away from me all the time in real life because I'm so talkative and enthusiastic, and it's made me paranoid, even online. I'm afraid that the people I talk to don't like me and just put up with me because they have to. -I'm always absolutely elated whenever my karma goes up, because it means someone honestly cares about what I have to say. They're not just complimenting me to get me to shut up, they actually give a damn. It's really stupid, and I know I shouldn't base my self confidence on what others think of me, but I'm so desperate for recognition that even the smallest gestures mean everything to me.

-When my mom says she loves me, I say I love her back. I`m lying, but that doesn`t mean I hate her either. I just don`t feel anything for her.

-I always feel absurdly happy whenever someone replies to a post I made. It probably has something to do with the fact that this is the only forum I've ever joined. Like I said a page or so back, I have trouble posting and putting my opinion out there, so being acknowledged is a huge relief.

-Whenever I make a mistake I tell myself how stupid I am until I get a headache or the beginning of one.

-I have a crush on the son of a minister and I'm Atheist.

-I hate it when I get smited. I've been smited a lot recently and I'm freaking out about what I said. When I get exalted I become irrationally happy.

-Upping your karma just made me feel incredibly good about myself for making you feel good about yourself.

-I fear bees. And there's one in my room O.O

-I invented Nobody because I'm afraid of people judging my appearance.

-I usually don't care about people's problems, even though I nod politely and listen to them when I really wish they'd just shut up and stop bitching like they're the only ones that ever have problems.

-I make myself think I like the music I listen to. Almost none of it appeals to me naturally. I enjoy the lyrical stylings and intricate bass parts, but... I always have to listen to a song four or five times to decide if I "like" it or not. The only groups that I honestly can't make myself like are Tragic Black, All Gone Dead and Bella Morte. The rest of the stuff on my playlists/mp3 player/whatever? I can't say for sure.

-I'm Atheist, and my parents both are Christian. And they don't know. And my mom would be really mad if she found out. But at least my friends won't tell on me, lol.

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